Starving for perfection?

Its true, may girls and an increasing number of boys are starving themselves for perfection.

So why am I punishing my body?

Truth: I want to be noticed as the thin dancer instead of the fat one in the corner. If I was thin then I would be more confident and be proud of who I am. People say the key to happiness is acceptance from within, and I don't have that. I'm sick of being me, always hating myself and hoping I don't wake up.

Its hard being ana because I'm constantly weak and tired, I must not give up. Giving up is a sign of weakness and I'm not weak, least not anymore.

I don't understand this pain thrust upon me, must I constantly go on just surviving instead of living?