When, Why and How?

When did everything become so complicated, when did it all get too much and when did life decide to kick me in the ass?

When was the point of no return?

Why me, why does this keep happening to me?

How is this possible and how can I change?

When did it all go wrong and why?

I have so many questions just like the ones about that float through my mind 24/7, I can't answer a single one of then but it doesn't stop them asking me.

We are told that smoking, taking drugs, drinking and this, that and the other will kill us or give us cancer but what won't kill us? I, for one will not live my life without the things I enjoy like smoking because when I do die I want to say, well I didn't live my life pure I did smoke, drink and starved myself. I did try to take my life, I did hurt myself and for the most part it didn't feel good but I still did it.

Why prolong the inevitable?

We are all going to die eventually.

Fall